For nearly a year as a teenager, Mataiasi Yaya Tagicakibau slept at the Suva Bus Stand, washed his school uniform at the Olympic Pool and went to sleep hungry.
Decades later, he is giving back to his community and the people who call the streets home.
Earlier this week, Fiji Sun joined him as he showed the places in downtown Suva where he struggled to survive and where he found relief.
Today, Mr Tagicakibau, 41, can vividly remember life on the city streets. He found refuge and comfort there after his relationship with his father broke down around the time he was in Form Five (Year 11).
At the time, he was a Marist Brothers High School (MBHS) student, and with no money, he had to adapt quickly.
He often slept on a piece of cardboard out- side the then Telecom Fiji office building, with other street dwellers and on benches at the Suva Bus Stand.
鈥淭his was a comfort place for me, even though I knew I wouldn鈥檛 get anywhere close to eight hours of sleep,鈥 he said, looking at the post office boxes outside Telecom.
鈥淚t was safe, but it held so much fear and hate for me.鈥
Mr Tagicakibau told a few people about his situation, who went on to inform his father.
He refused to tell anyone else about his predicament, fearing the consequences.
His teachers at MBHS had no clue that their student was homeless, always hungry and washing his dirty uniform at a public pool facility.
鈥淚 went back to the school last month to check if they had records of me as a student,鈥 he said.
鈥淯nfortunately, there were none.鈥
Reflecting on the difficult choices he made, Mr Tagicakibau said he once blamed his parents and even God, but later realised those were his own choices.
Those choices included carrying a few belongings in a training bag and moving from location to location around the city.
When asked if he played any sports at Marist, he said: 鈥淣o. I was a nobody at that school.鈥
Encouraging Others
Wedged between the Suva Municipal Market and the bus stand are small eateries where patrons can buy food.
Mr Tagicakibau recalled standing at the entrance to an eatery, waiting to be noticed by the cooks there so they could offer him a hot meal.
鈥淚t was survival for me. I would stand and wait, hoping to get something to eat,鈥 he said.
He often waited up to 15 minutes for a bowl of rourou or curry.
鈥淭his place brings back a lot of difficult memories of trying to survive and hoping my parents, siblings or relatives could see me 鈥 unfortunately, that never happened.鈥
As he walked through alleyways and past storefronts, Mr Tagicakibau stopped multiple times to greet shoe shiners and street dwellers he knew and had tried helping in the past.
鈥淧eople like shoe shiners want to progress. They want to get out of that situation, and some of them have families, but they don鈥檛 know how,鈥 he explained.
鈥淚 can鈥檛 give them advice, so I share my story about how I got out of the streets.鈥
After securing a job at McDonald鈥檚 in downtown Suva, he was even more determined to prove to his father that he could finally get off the streets and make something of himself.
For a few years, Mr Tagicakibau worked hard and found people who could keep him on track.
When he got married in his early 20s, he felt like everything was falling into place.
He didn鈥檛 slow down.
鈥淚 kept pushing myself to be better. I told myself I鈥檇 grab those opportunities in front of me and build up my work ethic,鈥 he said.
Mr Tagicakibau joined the Fiji Corrections Service鈥檚 Yellow Ribbon Project as an Institutions Rehabilitation Officer.
He spent five years at the Fiji Corrections Service, and that experience prompted him to help other young men living on the streets.
鈥淚 have a responsibility to get them all out. We can鈥檛 stop this (problem), but we can try to reduce it,鈥 he added.
Today, he delivers free cooking classes for children.
With his wife and four children, Mr Tagicakibau also runs a small business, selling cooked meals, such as lovo food.
However, his focus remains on community work and growing his social advocacy reach on social media.
His aim is to give others a second chance at life, a chance he was given all those years ago.
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